Saturday, May 28, 2011


Okay so remember how my dad has this talent for finding amazing movies that I love? Well, here's another one. Bella. If I wouldn't have had work in 15 minutes after watching the film...flat out would have cried. Wouldn't have even cared. Except for I had to go to work so my eyes just brimmed with tears. It's a gorgeous movie with beautiful statements about family and children. The characters have depth, and meaning. I feel like I look for that a lot now. Are the characters stock, or flat? Or do they seem realistic and developed? What morals does the movie represent?

Anyways, the movie is completely worth a look into. Check it out.

P.S. Dad how do you find these?!

Monday, May 23, 2011

"You Non Contributing Zero"

We were shown this video at work and I was dying. Every point he made is so true! And I totally agree that the best stuff is wasted on spoiled idiots. Now I don't think myself an idiot but I'm sure I don't appreciate technology as much as I should. What kills me is when I see 10 year olds with cell phones that are more advanced then mine. What do they need a cell phone for?! So they can text their besties and their jr. high loves and just omg brb LOL. :) Ughh my goodness! Death to every cell phone that is owned by anyone under the age of 16. And I know the excuse of "I might need to get a hold of my mom!" Well guess what, the world contacted mothers just fine for many a year, you can survive. One more little rant about phones... anyone who doesn't use correct language and punctuation is... extremely frustrating to me. Sorry if you do that but really? Adding apostrophes really isn't that hard. Nor is spelling words correctly.
Okay sorry for the rant! Technology is great and it's the reason that I have a job right now.
And I would love to see people that excited every time they got on a plane. Wouldn't that just make your day? I think we would all be a much happier people if we were happy and excited about more things.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Oh my dear family

I don't know if you know this, but I've been so privileged to have the family that I have. Extended family included. I love that we're singers and busting out in song is in regular occurrence. (Especially in Ethel Merman impressions now.) I love that we relish in old movies and recently got the girls together to watch Call Me Madam and Annie Get Your Gun. I love how many of us there are. I love that we are a game playing family and Make-a-Million is the staple Packard game. (I'm considering the idea of finally learning how to play that game since we have huge Make-a-Million tournaments at our family reunions.) I love that we always seem to quote The Three Amigos and The Scarlet Pimpernel. I love that we are chocolate eating people. I love that our dinner traditions are living on from generation to generation. I love that we have a family reunion this summer. I love this family.
Packard Family Reunion 2009 

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Looking Scary

Don't ask what happened, I don't know. All I know is that I have temperamental skin. 
This broke out all over my legs the day before I was to go to Disneyland. It made my feet itch like crazy.

It was mostly gone at Disneyland except for the back of my heel. 

Then on Mother's Day I broke out with this all over my arms. Little red itchy bumps. 

Stupid skin. I looked like a leper. 

But don't worry. My rashes are finally gone (well mostly, the one on the back of my ankle doesn't want to completely go away.) 
But come on now, I can't be without some deformity to show people!
You can't see the nail of my middle finger as well but just know that it got a good squish in the garage door. 
Complete accident and incredibly bad timing in every point of how it happened. 
I'm oh so pretty.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Little Teary Eyed

Somethings wrong. I don’t know what happened, or what changed. But I’m starting to get weapy…like emotional…like tearing up during television shows. (Bones has gotten me twice now.) How incredibly absurd is that?! I’ve never done that in my life and crying is a very rare occurance as it is. It normally takes a lot to get my lacrimal gland open and pouring.

I still have a chance to shut this down though, so far I’ve only been getting watery eyes. That’s like half of a cry. You can wipe that away and hide it pretty easy. No blotchy face to deal with. Just act like you were about to sneeze and ta-da, problem fixed.

Why do I dislike crying?
1. It gives me a headache.
2. Salty tears running down my face does not equal very attractive.
3. It makes me feel like I have no control.
4. It normally happens when I have something that I need to say; obviously something I’m emotional about. And then crying destroys any chance of being understood and instead you stand there, blubbering like an idiot trying to make some poor human understand what is so extremely important to you, or what is upsetting you.
5. It looks like your just crying to get your way, playing with others emotions by acting emotional yourself. In my opinion, this is a very feminine characteristic which I don’t really care for. I don’t want people to give me my way just because I start crying.

I don’t know, maybe I shouldn’t be so anti-crying. This is probably my subconcious self going against any norm it chooses. (Believe me, it does this. Just take a look at my favorite movies, books, and music and you’ll find that it’s normally not in the average stream. It’s not completely out there, but if an author has two books, and one is wordly known, I tend to like the other book that’s less known. My way of going against society I guess.)
Anyways, enough of this discussion.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Why I Love Disneyland

1. It's located in California, and just a half hour from a beach. One of our better ideas: leave extremely early in the morning in order to get there and lay out at the beach for the rest of the day. Brilliant.

2. Hopper pass. It's unheard of in our family to go to Disneyland and not California Adventures. Those are always a package deal. How do you not go to both parks?

3. Being with someone whose experiencing Disneyland for the first time. Oh it's a blast and adds a different sense of enjoyment.

4. Theme rides. I know those little kid rides are meant for little kids enjoyment... but they're so classic and I love riding through the movies of Alice in Wonderland and Peter Pan. (side note: The Snow White ride, Pinocchio, and Mr. Toad's Wild ride are quite possible the freakiest little rides I've ever been on. No joke. How do little kids enjoy those?! I'm surprised kids don't come off those rides terrified and crying.)

5. Thrill rides. Some of these are theme rides also, but everyone loves a good thrill. Indiana Jones, Space Mountain, Hollywood Tower Hotel, California Screaming, The Ferris Wheel. (Ferris Wheel you may question? Oh, it is the most gut dropping ferris wheel I've ever been on.)

See how some of those carts can swing? (Hopefully you can see it in the picture.) Yes, they swing a lot. When I went on this ride when I was much younger, I cried my poor little eyes out. (And whoever was on it with me was standing up and making it swing even more). It was a horrible ride. Well, I'm much older now and I had Whitney with me, who I decided needed to experience almost every ride. We didn't think it would swing that much anyways since we weren't going to be forcing it like before. Oh no... it swung just as much and I was facing backwards. Imagine sitting in the cart and having it suddenly start moving backward and then swinging back so you are now looking downward. I relate this ride to the haunted forests at Halloween. It's a scary fun. While you're there you're thinking "this was the dumbest idea" but afterward, you're craving more and thinking, "that was the greatest idea." The ferris wheel has this intense scary fun feeling to it that drove me and Whitney back to ride it again the next day.
(Yes we are holding on to the back of our seats for dear life.)

6. The music. The music on the rides, in the shops, as your walking along the streets just as this wonderful childhood innocent goodness to it. And yes we bought the CD that has the songs from most of the rides and park areas of Disneyland and California Adventure.

7. Lastly, the atmosphere. It's like the music, innocent goodness. (Aside from the completely immodest clothing worn by many Disney-goers. You just ignore those people.) Other then that, it's great.

Friday, May 6, 2011


So the full title of this book is Better: A Surgeon's Notes on Performance by Atul Gawande. I've never understood it, but I get a lot of questioning looks when I pull out one of my medical books to read. My grandma asked if it was a textbook that I was reading for school the other week. No. Just a book, for fun. I love a good medical book. They are some of the most interesting books I've read. (Especially as far as learning new things goes.) I have another book by this same author, Atul Gawande, and I love it just as much. He writes in a fantastic way that brings things to a lower level (so you can actually understand what he's talking about), but you don't feel like he's dumbing it down. He just makes it much easier to understand.

In the book, Better, he talks about the struggle in medicine to perform well in circumstances that aren't always under your control. Gawande divides the book into three sections, talking about diligence, the challenge to do right, and ingenuity. I loved his examples in the book, the cases that he talked about and what worked and what didn't.

Here's a quote from the book.
"Better is possible. It does not take genius. It takes diligence. It takes moral clarity. It takes ingenuity. And above all, it takes a willingness to try."

At the end he gives five suggestions to make a worthy difference, or to be a  positive deviant. Now he's aiming these all towards the medical field but I think they're completely applicable in any other field of life.
1. Ask an unscripted question. "Ours is a job of talking to strangers. Why not learn something about them?"
2. Don't complain. "Nothing in medicine is more dispiriting than hearing doctors complain... Resist it. It's boring, it doesn't solve anything, and it will get you down. You don't have to be sunny about everything. Just be prepared with something else to discuss."
3. Count something. "Regardless of what one ultimately does in medicine - or outside medicine, for that matter - one should be a scientist in this world. If you count something you find interesting, you will learn something interesting."
4. Write something. "Writing lets you step back and think through a problem. Even the angriest rant forces the writer to achieve a degree of thoughtfulness."
5. Change. "Be willing to recognize the inadequacies in what you do and to seek out solutions."

"So find something new to try, something to change. Count how often you succeed and how often you fail. Write about it. Ask people what they think. See if you can keep the conversation going."