Finally A Finished Project

In the past chalk art and I haven't always been on the best of terms. (Example here) But that's okay because every year I get a renewed sense of excitement and determination to make something happen. And I finally finished one of my drawings. 

This is after day one of a little over 2 hours work. (Sorry about the half shade, I forgot to take another picture later.)

And finally, a finished product that I feel good about. Total work time was around 3 1/2 hours. Not too bad compared to how much time I've seen people spend on their drawings at the chalk art festival. 

Yay for finishing projects!

2012 Time Lapse

Time Lapse

Blessing of Fathers

My last post was more on the gloom and downside of life but lucky for me I have been blessed with amazing parents who hear my cry for help and respond. After I had a falling apart cry session to my dad, talking about things I was having a hard time with, the struggles of life and the weight of responsibility he gave me a father's blessing. How grateful I am to have a wonderful loving dad who knows the exact answer to what I need. How also grateful I am for my Heavenly Father who is there to inspire my father as he gave the blessing. I was given needed reassurance about things that I had been struggling with. I felt the love of both of my fathers pouring out on me. I was given strength and ability to continue forward. I was given a boost, a reminder of things I had forgotten.
I see every day how blessed I am to have the parents I do. To have a father who loves me and helps me in every area of life. My dad has opened my eyes to so many aspects of the world that I would have never experienced without him. I have grown in his way of trying new things, developing many diverse hobbies and learning in both ways of educational and spiritual. I have learned to love nature; to enjoy the outdoors. I have learned honest work ethic. I have grown up seeing his passion to serve others. I love my dad. I love that it is Father's Day and we get to take the time to appreciate the work that they do and the influence they have. I love my Heavenly Father as well and I see His hand in my life daily. I have a good life. I have a blessed life. I have a father.

Having a Moment

So I'm officially hired on at the hospital now. I had my new employee orientation today. It's nice to finally be hired on but I'm terribly nervous right now. I'm afraid of the responsibility. Sometimes I feel like I don't want it. I'm scared to be my own tech, to not have someone to hide behind. I feel stressed out. I have so much schooling to work on, tests to study for and papers to write. I feel like I don't have enough time in the day to contact and text everyone that I need to for my ward calling. I feel like I have so much to plan and I don't have any legitimate help. I feel heavy. I feel overloaded. I don't know what I want. I feel unsure about what to do if a different job opportunity presents itself. (Granted that possibility isn't even possible right now since I haven't given him my resume but down the road...). I feel bad about eventually leaving my mall job, about abandoning them. I really like those co workers. I'm frustrated about being placed in the middle of a sticky situation at clinicals. I feel like feelings of frustration for someone else are being deflected to me. I'm tired.
Please just give me summer. Let school be over. I need to be done for right now.
(Sorry for the downer post but like I said in the title, I'm having a moment of feeling completely weak right now. It happens.)

Car Troubles

Well, life got quite interesting this last weekend. My plans were to drive up to Rexburg Saturday morning so I could visit family and friends up there but I never even made it past Salt Lake. I got in a lovely little accident that totaled the car and obviously canceled the trip. Picture this: I'm in the middle lane on the freeway going about 70mph when my back right tire blows. The car started almost fishtailing and at that moment my mind blanked out, the only thing going was my reflexes trying to keep the car in the lane. Well that didn't work for very long because I lost control of the car. It spun around and across the right lanes until I was facing backwards and then the drivers side of the car slammed into the concrete wall. I definitely screamed once I lost control until I hit the wall. Lucky for me I hit right where a lane was starting to appear for an off ramp so I was pretty out of the way of traffic. I also somehow managed to hit a trucks front bumper during my spin. His truck only had a dent, at least that's all he told me. I never saw the front of his truck. But my car was banged up very nicely. The two driver side doors wouldn't open and the hood and trunk were bent up. The front right tire rod was broken as well. But no one was hurt. I was completely fine. I do have a good bruise on the side of my knee and I had a stiff neck the next day but nothing else. I was one lucky girl and I know that Heavenly Father was watching over me. There were a number of miracles and blessings from this whole experience which I won't go into detail about, but I do know that I was protected. I could have flipped, I could have hit more cars, I could have been in the middle of Idaho in a no-man's land area where there are no concrete barriers to stop you. (Just to name a few)

My skid marks across the freeway and into the wall. 

Goodbye little car. You served us well. You won't really be missed because the new car we have is a definite upgrade in my eyes.