Sunday, May 30, 2010


We made dinner last night with the roommies, well 4 of us. Chelsea and Kylie were gone. But we made Aubreys Dads breakfast pizzas. They are delicious and extremely easy to make.

Aubs, the little chef :)

Me and Abby

Aub and Caira

Aub with the apron her mommy bought her.

Monday, May 17, 2010

A Run

I went on a run to the temple tonight.
It's absolutely uphill the entire way there.
It was a hard run for me.
Firstly, I haven't been running for a good long amount of time, let alone running up hills.
Secondly, Rexburg is known for it's wind, and I was running against it.
There were times when a motorcycle would drive past me, and I would want to stick out my thumb and hitch a ride up to the temple.
There were moments when someone on a bike would ride past me, and I'd want to take their bike just to get up there faster.
But what is the point of going on a run for physical exercise if you ride on a motorcycle?

I'm going to the temple tomorrow.
There absolutely is a lot of homework that I need to get done tomorrow.
It's going to be a long day for me.
Sometimes it's hard to get to the temple. Sometimes it's hard to have an amazing hard rock testimony. Sometimes the journey is just hard.
There are times when you might see a motorcycle drive past, and you want to hitch a ride. Sometimes you just want to ride on your parents testimony to finish the journey.
Sometimes you want to borrow someones bike, you only make the decision to go because a friend is going.
But what is the point of having difficulties in life in order to strengthen you, if you want to ride off of everyone else? There is not strengthening of yourself if you won't carry the load.

Sometimes it's hard to start a habit. It's hard to read your scriptures everyday, pray morning and night. It's hard to find room in a busy college schedule to attend the temple.
It's hard to run. It's hard to run hills. The first run will knock you out. But in order to get better, don't you have to keep running? You have to continually run those hills in order to strengthen your muscles. Just as you must continually live each aspect of the gospel in order to strengthen your testimony. It won't come in one easy day, one nice jog around the track. You'll have your challenges in life that will test you. You'll run against the wind sometimes. But if you don't, how are you ever to improve?

It's those hard uphill moments that will make you or break you. You are ultimately the only one who can decide which direction you'll go. You can take the challenges and improve, learn, gain strength. It's only through your own legs that you can reach your destination. It's only through your own testimony that you can do what you are meant to do.

Those hills, that wind, it's going to make me.

Saturday, May 15, 2010


Today is wonderful.

You know that saying where you have to experience the bitter before you can taste the sweet? Well that's what I've had. Last weekend was an absolutely crappy weekend. It was ridiculous. The load of homework, drama, people trying to get me to not do my homework, tension, "that time of the month" for four of us in my apartment... it was like walking on eggshells all weekend.

But the weather, is beautiful right now. It is 70 degrees. Gorgeous, wonderful, luxurious sun.

The day started with the guys in our ward making the girls breakfast. A full on breakfast too mind you. Eggs, bacon, sausage, pancakes, hash browns.... ah it was yummy. And then I had a great game of racquetball with a friend who is much better then me. He taught me a lot though, I think I'll improve immensely learning from him. He's got wicked serves. You're either running to the ball, or ducking away from it.

After some clean up, the girls and I went to the temple. This was the first time for me going to the Rexburg Temple. I love this temple. I love temples. I love being there. I don't know how I lasted all fall semester without going once. What a shame. Normally on Saturdays, you plan for a long temple day. Like 4 hours long temple day. So we finished up as much homework as possible so we would be able to relax and have the right frame of mind while in the Lords house. But crazily, we were done in a little over one hour! I don't know how it happened but we got out in perfect time to make it to Quinton's soccer game. Well, we got there at half time but still, perfect.

Beautiful weather for a soccer game, I'm sure I got burned. Intense soccer game, those are the best. And a winning game for Quintons team.

We have stake conference tonight. It's been a good day. I like these Saturdays.

Sunday, May 9, 2010


Mother's Day away from home is obscure to me. I don't like it.

I remember the days of dad making breakfast for mom, while the kids wrote letters, and then we would carry up the mass of food placed on a cookie sheet to her in bed. We would then all sit on the bed and hand her our letter and she would read them to herself, have some laughs, cry and little and procede to give us each a hug and then share her testimony on how we as a family make her life as a mom, a lot easier. How supportive we are with her and dad. But mom, you are the one that makes our life a lot easier. Mine especially. You are the one that supports me. You are the one with the advice. You are the one I want to call when my entire apartment has had a ridiculously crappy saturday. You are the one that I want to tell everything happening in my life to. You are the one I want to talk to when I meet a boy that I'm interested in. Yours is the advice I put the most weight to.

I love you mom. I love what I have learned from you. I love your cooking. I love that you are in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. I love that you had me take piano lessons. I love my blanket that I have up here that your grandma made for you in college. I love being able to say that I have "Packard" in me. I love how you support me. I love how you direct me. I love how it was you that got me interested in radiology.

Thank you mom for helping me become what I am today. Thank you for helping me build off of your testimony, to where I now have such a strong one of my own. Thank you for having a wonderful relationship with dad. Thank you for showing me what mother's should be, what should be most important. Thank you for being there in the points in my life where I truly needed you. Thank you for helping me see that high school isn't worth the amount of drama that people put into it. Thank you for being a mother.

I love you mom.